Some serious introspection has come up this week in BJJ land for some of the bloggers that I follow regularly; Georgette Oden and West Side Mark are to name a few.  The following is something I wrote on the 29th of June regarding the previous night’s class.

Last night was humbling.  Well, more like a good kick in the ass. There was nothing unusual going on; no hidden technique revealed to all but myself.  My body felt like I was moving through molasses. I got caught in the same chokes that I always get caught in by the same guys.  I missed shots that were handed to me and that I was even told were being handed to me (thanks anyway Blake). I got tapped.  I got tapped over and over.  I even got tapped by the new white belt with a Kimura. Needless to say by the end I was a bit unhappy with myself.

So after class I chased Mark into his office and not so quietly asked, ‘Mark, what the hell is wrong with me???’.  I’m glad his response began with a laugh.  He explained (this is what I heard at least) that everyone hits a brick wall, and that the best thing to do is just take one thing and work that, whether it be trying to hold a position for a certain amount of time or maybe not allow myself to be caught in one. Maybe a trap, but nothing ridiculous. Take it one thing at a time and build up from there.

I received the following the next day:

The achievement of anything that you desire must be considered success, whether it is a trophy or money or relationships, or things. But if you will let your standard of success be your achievement of joy—everything else will fall easily into place. For in the finding of joy, you are finding vibrational alignment with the resources of the Universe.

— Abraham

Excerpted from “The Law of Attraction, The Basics of the Teachings of Abraham” #487

So often I get caught up in the idea of what I am supposed to be doing/being/experiencing that I forget why it is I am doing something in the first place.

This week has given me an ass kicking in the right direction. All my inner conflict has sparked new desires and ideas.  Since Monday night my head has been working on new ways to approach not only my BJJ practice but other things that I want accomplish.

I’m excited and charged again.